Suspense

Quote of the day: “They act in a very noble way.” — Professor David Kangas, referring to SUVs

So Wednesday I was supposed to find out which dorm I’m going to be in next fall and spring. That was the originally scheduled date that this information would be made available. Unfortunately that information won’t be made available now until April 5th (Monday). The suspense is killing me. I mean, I know God’s going to come through and Team Win will be united in McCollum. (Team Win members: Sweet Joe, Scott P Moriak, Will Kearney, and myself). But I’m still bugging out with anticipation. And we probably won’t all be in the same room to begin with. We’ll have to call up poor Barbara Perry in the housing department to get us all switched into the same room (Andy and I are on a first name basis with Babs). In fact, we won’t find out if Joe’s in that dorm at all until sometime in the summer (since he’s coming from off campus).

But I still want to know about me. Now.

What does this tell me about myself? That I’m not trusting. That I’m impatient. That I always have to be doing, I don’t know how to just be (I’m told that will be important in Europe). Now these things aren’t negative in all contexts I suppose. But when my distrust is with the Lord, when I’m not satisfied with His timing, when I have to be doing and can’t just be still and know that He is God, that’s a negative.

And unfortunately this isn’t something that can be given a quick fix. I really like quick fixes. I’m part of the microwavable, downloadable, delivered-in-30-minutes-or-it’s-freeable generation.